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Just recently I was in a conversation with a friend that made me feel
(again) my greatest fear. I started the talk with a goal to know more of this
friend. Somehow I achieved my objective – learned a lot about her family, her plans,
and her fears – yet the latter part of the conversation made me feel so heavy
and afraid. She uttered (maybe) the most sensitive sentence for me.
“You are so idealistic”, she
said.
I did not feel bad with her. She said this in a very nice way; and
considering that this friend is like a sister to me, what she said was treated
as a reminder. Really it is ‘not what you say but it’s how you say it.’ Instead
of getting so upset with her, what she said made me ponder on my situation now.
Questions like ‘Am I really idealistic?’, ‘Am I dreaming too high?’, and ‘Are
all my dreams realistic and achievable?’ got into my head one by one.
Eventually, it resulted to other questions…‘Will I fail at the end?’, ‘Am I on
the right place now to achieve all my dreams?’, ‘Am I achieving less what are
expected my age?’
But as many people say, you need to dissect an animal to know its
anatomy. Just like with the situation I was in, I needed to answer the
questions separately. Until I found out that all these questions have the same answer. And that I
got from God when He said, ‘You are serving a mighty God’.
I know I am not the only one who experienced or is experiencing this
dilemma. The greatest fear of idealism really would crush (first) your brain
and finally your heart. This has a very strong power to let you feel pity, insecurity,
and distrust. But then again, how can we win this battle and prove to our
mountains that God is higher? On my end, I am keeping these in mind…
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First, God has a perfect plan
for everyone. I don’t know about you but I am still holding on to His
promises. Let us trust in a sense that we know that He has a purpose why we are
in a certain situation and why we are not. It is easy to honour Him when what happens
favours us. But I know it is difficult to accept why what He gives is not what we
expect (rather, it is so easy to complain). When this occurs, think back and beyond.
I remember a friend whose mom is sick asking, ‘Why is this happening
now?’ Then I said, ‘Think when this situation happened before’. Then she
recalled her medical assistance from her previous job did not cover her
immediate family members. And she said she might have found it more difficult
to support her mom’s medication then. Or let’s say when her situation will just
be happening in the future. May be she’ll be having other priorities (married
or starting to build her business I guess).
God knows the proper timing. Remember that He is not the one putting
us in a bad circumstance. Keep in mind that God is a friend who controls it for
our own benefit.
Second, God is not just able;
believe He’ll fulfil. Often we only believe He is mighty to make all things
possible for us and suddenly we stop. Take the next step and claim that He is
willing to fulfil His promises. Not risking to take the next step suggests
failure. It’s not God who made you fail but your own doubts and fear.
And sometimes the steps are repetitive. You’ll realize you are just in
the same path but no, you just need to discover the secret weapon in there for
you to go to the next level…and reach the finish line. Like the common computer games
we play, you need to first unlock the current level before you move on to the
next. Stop complaining why you’re stagnant rather be more thrilled to master
the level you are in.
Third and last, God gives the
best. I know there are possibilities I will not attain my visions. But
still, I am excited for the things God is in store for me. He is the one who
gave me my visions for a purpose. It might not to achieve all these but may be
to use these for me to accomplish His greater plans. I know unrealizing my visions now isn’t failing…it is learning.
In the first place, I don’t even deserve the life I have yet God
gave me this wonderful gift. What less would He not give me when He has given
me the biggest?
In God...greatest fear's no more. :)
